hey I just wanted to get some thoughts down about my tutorial with Chole. 

my brain feels clear. I felt quite stagnant about what my so called calling was, or even what motivated me. clearly I feel a calling towards the arts, I couldn’t imagine myself doing anything but that, but I couldn’t figure out what I wanted to share with the world. I think I want to share the world with each other? I love the concept of storytelling and learning about how people live, whether that’s culturally or socially. especially during my placement year I was saying in the tutorial one of the main things ive taken away has been the importance of social connection, especially in the fashion industry, but also how to network correctly, or at least as best as you can. I think hearing other peoples stories is fascinating and learning about what motivated them to start their own brand. they all have immense drive which is beautiful to see.  

I think upon focusing on social aspects of my experience in the fashion industry chole said this ‘Because sometimes things are happening on a micro level that tell us more about the industry as a whole’ and rather than talk about massive issues, for an example the sheer amount of unpaid interns that literally run the fashion industry to ‘but we have to locate them in the particular.’ I am the particular in this situation, and my experience of having had exceptions to rely on me to get a job done, finding the motivation to actually complete it, out of loyalty, out of determination and sometimes even fear, rather than monetary payments. its hard when the world revolves around money I cannot recount the amount of times my parents have said but you are even getting paid. its hard to translate the sense of urgency that replaces the reward or money. idk.  

also im just gonna point evidence explanations the hell out my points, going to try to expand on what ive written, rather than to just have random stories and what ive learnt from them but to intentionally tie them into the greater point of what ive realised and reflected throughout the year. cause ive grown so much, I feel like a different person in terms of workplace attributes and confidence to carry myself with purpose in these settings.  

I am ready to write now, going to establish ‘This is what is important to me and what I want to learn. You tell us that and then everything that we’re marking you on is your appropriateness based on your own goals.’ how I operate as a person and what ive done throughout this year to solidify/ expand my values and what’s changed in them. 

I love chole. 

gonna do another blog post just with some cheeky pictures of knitster and also some pictures from my note book on like evidence of resilience and also my skeleton map/ random flow charts ive got.